Sorry...
Hello! :)
Anyways. Some people just think that things just go back to how they were by them going 'oh hey, let's catch up tomorrow at so-and-so time...'
If i wanted to talk to you, i would've taken the initiative to do so a long time ago. take the hint.
just because you're all of a sudden willing to talk to me again doesn't mean i'm going to come running back to you. you'd have to be a self-absorbed, vain piece of crap to think that.
i get upset not because you don't talk to me but because i was stupid enough to think i wanted to be anything like you. i regret that ever had anything to do with you.
look what you've made me become.
i hate you for always blaming me for every rift that occurs between us. i hate you more for making me believe you ever gave a damn about anyone other than yourself. it drives me insane when i think about how you ignored my attempts to communicate with you yet you probably think you're the better person because you say hello back six months later.
fuck you.
having said that, i'll admit life is utterly dull now you've stripped me of anyone i ever called a friend. i knew them before you did. thank you for assisting in the falling apart of my life. thankyou for replacing me with people i used to call my friends. it's only now that i realize they never cared about me anyway.
so yes. it is dull without you there. but then i remember just how plain crappy and shitty it was when you played any sort of role in my life. and my current situation is blissful in comparison.
then you cry 'i cared but you just pushed me away. i never even knew why you stopped talking to me. just because you hate my girlfriend.' my response is to laugh at you and point out that i don't care who you date. i really don't. i have no intention of reproducing with you. you can go fornicate till your heart's content. i don't give a shit.
however i cared when you forgot i existed altogether. i cared when you only called when you wanted something from me. i was stupid enough to tag along with it hoping that you'll one day remember that i was once there at all. once upon a time, i cared.
now, if i could burn your existence out of my brain, i would. truly i would.
as angry as i am with you, i'm angrier with myself. that it took me so long to see you for what you really are. don't expect me to fall into bad habits again.
i never want to be associated with you. i never want anyone to even think that i ever had anything to do with you. you live your life and i'll live my own. don't expect the lines to tangle.
i've always taken the blame in the past because i thought i needed you to be there to look after me. i'm not going to this time. you go run along with all your other minions. i sure as hell am not one of them.
i'll say hello if i see you in the street. i'll ask how you are whenever meeting is inevitable. i'll wish you a happy birthday and a merry christmas every year. but remember this:
our ties have been severed.
i have applied to you what i apply to anything i don't want.
ctrl alt delete.
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