major lustage

something else never fails to impress me...

i love this...



sorry for the lack of posts lately! i've had a lot on my plate. back to normal soon! xx.

clothing lustage

I have a confession to make. I really like clothes from General Pants Co. ... I really do.

 I think they get a good mixture of the trends, oddity and casualness. The only problem is for people like me, who like the look of slightly odd looking clothes and runway style, buy their items then are too scared to wear them because they look slightly... odd. I recently got these super comfy high-waisted pants in denim blue cotton. These ones actually:

They look totally amazing on this model but with my slightly wide hips, they look a bit funny... But i love them so much that I'm sure I'll find a way around it! :S

I was browsing the General Pants website in my procrastination and thought I'd share with you some of the current items I'm lusting after...

Floral Tie Die Dress by Something Else

Button Waist Dress by Something Else

Runaway Black by Sabre Vision

Patch Coat by Don't Ask Amanda

Dome Motif Tank by Something Else

Skin Cher Sweat by Cheap Monday

Paris Destroy Tee by Stussy

Wild Thorn Knit Jumper by One Teaspoon

As you can tell, I like slouchy and comfy clothes but that doesn't mean you compromise taste for it! Some people manage to look effortless chic and gorgeous in the most comfortable of clothing. Not to say I can do it... I usually just look like a bum. Sigh. I will get there one day!! :D

Anyway, that's enough procrastination for me for one night... If anyone would like to buy me the above items please feel free to! :)

Until we meet again! xx.

So... What's up?

Sorry that it's been so long since my last post! A lot has been happening in the backdrop of my life. As I mentioned earlier, I went to Japan and HK for a little while and came back just before Christmas. Sometime during January a spent a few days in Newcastle with my brother. My grandma has been sick on-and-off so it makes it hard on the family. Lunar New Year and Solar New Year both passed. So did Kathleen's birthday. I saw Andrew McMahon perform over the weekend which was lovely. Everyday I stare out of my window and realise that it looks the same as yesterday.

My life is slowly drowning under paper, pens and empty Oreo packets.

It's been an interesting break for me. It actually hasn't been much of a break at all. Other activities have been consuming my time so I have no idea where my three month relax period all flew off to! I haven't seen many friends since finishing up second year of B.Sci. Everyone is so super busy at the moment plus I have to stay home with grandma, but that's okay.

I don't know what the future will bring. All I can do is be myself and I'm sure life will end up being exactly how it's meant to be.

this crap that is my life.

i just don't think i can handle it with an eternal smile on my face, pretending nothing is wrong, anymore. if i get upset, then i apologise but i can't hold it in as well as others do.

i hate exams

I know, everyone hates exams. But you know when you get to that point of stressed-out-ness that you just feel doomed to failure? That's me right now. There is just so much content to learn... I feel like just bursting into tears! How anyone can learn all this stuff in less than a month is completely beyond me. I've been at it for a week and a half and now it just feels like a bundle of words. My poor friend is planning to somehow study it all in one week! I just don't know how I'm going to manage this one. I still have four days-ish. Unfortunately I have a wedding to go to on Saturday, which is just awful timing. So I have three and a half days and thirty-six hours worth of content? D:

If I told my family then they'd blame my lack of studying while my brother and his kids were in town. Yes, that was a distraction of sorts but I don't think I would've gotten anymore done. If I studied during the day then I wouldn't study at night. I'm pretty sure my procrastinating skills are at work much more during daytime study sessions and I would've been even more behind. I'm where I planned to be at the end of Thursday. It would be nice to be a bit more confident with the content so I plan on working on that over the next few days along with doing questions. I really wanted a 70 for this subject too (yes, I know it's a pretty low aim but I find it so extremely difficult to get good grades at uni altogether!). I suppose upper 60s really wouldn't be so bad but a 70-something would be so nice! :)

I don't even know how to motivate myself right now. I'm just hoping that 3 1/2 days is enough to cram all this knowledge in! I think I felt the same way a few days before my Biotech exam a week ago and that turned out just fine, so I'm hoping and HOPING this one will have a similar outcome!

ARGH! Uni is so painful.

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Konstantine

So on this late night, I find myself thinking about and humming this favourite song of mine: Konstantine. When people ask me if I have a favourite song (which is usually asked by a 10 year old anyway) I almost always say: Konstantine. Despite being fairly old now, it remains one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard. The story told is so strong and emotional. The music crescendos before dimming to a single voice and piano where the piano gives just as much as the vocalist. Konstantine is an emotional roller-coaster of a song. It's a bittersweet melody at its finest. I could quote so many meaningful lines.  Andrew McMahon (who is one of my all time heroes! musically anyway...) is the genius behind it. I just love this song beyond words. The lyrics themselves have so much symbolism yet remain really quite simplistic. I don't really know how to describe it... It's just so emotional and beautiful. I always feel emotional and somewhat sad listening to it. The power of music. :)

It's hard to write out the lyrics beneath because AM sings it with slightly modified lyrics everytime. I've written out the ones to the version that I always listen to; I think it's a live version. The video that I've posted to go with it may not match completely. But please enjoy! :)

I can't imagine all the people that you know,
And the places that you go,
When the lights are turned down low.
And I don't understand all the things you've seen,
But I'm slipping in between,
You and your big... Dreams.
It's always you and my big dreams...

And you tell me that it's over,
But I can't stand, 

You're in a patch of four leaf clover,
And you're restless,
And I'm naked,
You've got to get out,
You can't stand to see me shaking,
No, could you let me go?

And you don't want to be here in the future,
So you say, 'The present's just a pleasant interruption to the past.'
And you don't want to look much closer,
'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope,
That you had sent into the sky by now had... Crashed.
And it did, because of me...

And then you bring me home,
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no,
And I'm sleeping in your living room,
But we don't have much room,
To live.

And I had dreams that I would learn to play guitar,
Maybe cross the country,
Become a rockstar.
And there was hope in me,
That I could take you there,
But dammit you're so young,
But I don't think I care.
And if I hurt you then I'm sorry,
It's just this guilt has got the best of me.

And then you bring me home,
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no,
And I'm dreaming in your living room,
But we don't have much room,
To live.

Konstantine came walking down the stairs,
Doesn't she look good,
Standing in her underwear?
And I've been thinking, and I've thinking, no,
She's been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere.

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs,
And all that I could do was touch her long blond hair,
And I was thinking, what I was thinking ya know,
We've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere.

This is because I can spell confusion with a K and it's hard to like it,
It's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it,
It's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car,
But this time I'm alone and I don't see those stars,
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said?
What you thought this song meant?
You thought this song meant.

And if this is what it takes,
Just to lie in my mistakes,
And live with what I did to you,
And all the things I put you through,
I always catch the clock it's 11:11,
And now you want to talk,
It's not hard to dream,
You'll always be my Konstantine.

They'll never hurt you like I do.

This is to a girl who got into my head,
With all these pretty things she did,
Hey baby, you know, that you keep me up in bed.
It's to a girl who got into my head,
With all these fucked up things I did,
Hey maybe, baby, you could keep me up in bed,
My Konstantine...
Spin around me like a dream,
We played out on this movie screen,
And I said,
'Did you know I've missed you?'

God, I miss you...

And then you bring me home,
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh,
And you see, no, that I've been missing in my living room,

Because it's all you.
'Cause this is what I miss, what I miss...

We don't have much room...
I said, does anybody really need that room?
Because we all need a little bit of room
To live.

My Konstantine.


- Konstantine by Something Corporate

Knives & Flowers

i'm sure you would've all been expecting one of my random changes of location and name for a little while now. WELL, it is my pleasure to present to you: Knives & Flowers.

the title is taken from the combination of two characters names from the Scott Pilgrim comics/movie: Knives Chau and Ramona Flowers. The two characters represent opposites in many ways and so do knives and flowers. My mood (reflected in my writing) can vary enormous degrees so it was only fitting that i gave the blog a similar title. i also changed the actual design to a more simplistic one to represent a blank canvas. this blog is kind of the blank canvas that i write my life upon.

i hope you like it! more posts soon after exams!

xx.