sorry i've been away for so long!! so much went on during the break that i just never got much of a chance to sit down and write... i ended up going on a roadtrip to sydney to visit my cousin, then stayed with my brother in newcastle for a fortnight!
i'm now back at uni... and just not in study mode at all. so i'm hating all my subjects two days in. it's so bad. ><"
in regards to certain other long-standing issues in my life... i'm just going let it be. i've decided that i'd value the alternative so much more as a friend. he means a lot to me as he is and i wouldn't want to change that. lord knows he already has to put up with my constant whinging... bless him! it's friendly love! :D
as to the one i always considered the main... sometimes i just wish i could get over it. but then he's just so nice that it makes it so hard. he was messaging me today... i'm in way over my head with this. i guess the real drawback when considering him is that (this is going to sound so SO stupid) but he's almost just too social? being the hermity, borderline people-disliker that i am, it makes him the opposite of me. i only have 3 hours of class with him per week this sem as opposed to last sem where it was 8 hours a week. when i see him, it's like... !!! i've said before, he's not good looking nor does he even try to be so by dressing well, there's nothing special about his personality, but something is just... right. i don't know what it is. there's just a weird charisma about him. hmmm. SIGH. the more i write, the bigger the hole i'm digging for myself. :(
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