... and there was light.

hi everyone!

i hope you're all well! :D

i've been rather sick the last few days but managed to crawl out of bed this morning for a full day of uni, 10-5 with no break. despite being terribly long, it didn't feel that way because all my classes were good so i guess i'm pretty happy with that. i feel so tired and ill right now though... and i probably won't get home til 7ish. it's 5:38pm and i'm sitting in the biomed library, waiting for my brother to finish catching up with his friend and take me home! sigh.

i felt compelled to write about a small revelation a had less than an hour ago and, seeing as though i don't really feel like studying, this seemed like a good time to do it.

i just finished a three hour seminar on developments in biotechnology (2-5). i didn't really know what to expect from it but i ended up finding it really interesting. we had three speakers and it was the last one that really struck me. he does research at the university and is currently in the process of developing and testing a vaccine that could potentially eradicate a parasite that's killing large numbers of people in under-developed countries. it was really sad to hear how the project could've been at it's current point 10 years ago if it had received enough funding from companies. these large companies won't invest money into something that won't generate profit. i think that's just so terribly sad. (just had a coughing fit that has probably spread my sickness through this whole floor of people. awesome.) only putting in if you know you're going to get something greater out of it. and that something always, ALWAYS has to be money. so this professor that came to talk to us has been working on this project for 20 years and is finally testing it overseas. i think that's amazing. and all of a sudden everything that i stood for a few years ago came rushing back and everything that i'm doing now just makes sense.

my subjects all link together in the right way and i feel like i'm meant to be in this position. i always believed that you're where you are for a reason but now i feel like it's really true. biotech has re-exposed me to what kind of materialistic world we live in... it was something that i was so passionate about changing a few years ago. pharm gives me the background i need if this is what i want to do. human rights has been plummeting into me how unjust and misfunctioning the world is. mps is like a background subject, telling me how we've all become so absorbed in the lives of celebrities and politicians that we forget their policies and more important world issues.

it's like i've found inspiration all over again. i even went and borrowed the biotech textbook for the night. (y)
i don't know how long this inspiration will last for but it does feel nice to have it back again even if only for a little while. :)

so here's my crazy plan: ... actually, i don't want you to know my crazy plan just yet. you can wait.

yes i'm still coughing like a madwoman. sigh.

two birthdays this weekend. i don't know if i'll feel well enough to go. and i'm really behind on all my summaries too. :( but i've only got two hours tomorrow, finish at 11 so hopefully i can just go home and study... or rest if needed.

anyways, i need to go meet my brother. shall write again soon. xx.


I've never felt so lost. I've never felt so much at home. Please write my folks and throw away my keys. - I Woke Up in a Car by Something Corporate