You know how sometimes you just have days so terribly bad that it makes you question if any good will ever come ever again? I had one of those days today.
It was my own fault for leaving my assignment till so late. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I always have this -14% motivation problem during the first half of the year. ALWAYS. even during high school. But this was just... bad. Like, really bad. I guess it has been a terrible mix of sem1 depression and post-gamsat burnt out. I was frantically beginning the assignment at 11:00pm last night. I stayed up til 4:30am. Then it took me the rest of today to put together this worse-than-mediocre assignment. Even when I finished it, I couldn't even print it because the computers at uni are so bad! So I'm running around campus before finally pleading with the man at the front desk to help me. My assignment was so terrible! I'm ashamed to know that I had anything to do with it at all. :(
I just don't know what's wrong with me at the moment. This is so un-me. How do I become me again? I wish someone could tell me... There's just no motivation anymore. Just none at all. I can imagine it'll be even worse when I get my gamsat result. :(
I need to find the motivation again. I had fabulous mo last semester! I wonder where it all went...?
I just feel really angry at myself. So very very amgry.
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