sometimes what you want is different from what you get.

and sometimes you just have to accept it.

i want to be the only person this guy wants to talk to. i really do. i don't know what on earth we'd talk about, but i just want him all to myself. no one else. just me.

but sometimes, life doesn't give you what you want. for one reason or another, it doesn't. and there's always a reason. most experiences are learning ones and i try not to forget that.

i think i may have come across as simply too intense for him. which is a shame because i'm not always so loud. i'm actually quiet most of the time. i wish he could see me the way that i see him. or maybe i'm just not what he's looking for. that's quite sad in itself.

i guess there's nothing to do but to go with the flow...