against the world.

you know how sometimes you get the feeling that the world is trying to tell you that you're going down the wrong pathway? yeah. i guess that's how i'm feeling at the moment.

i like trusting the flow of life. it's always led me to the right place. i know most people will say that you have to pave your own pathways and make your own dreams, don't let yourself get lost in the current of life's river but i guess i think differently. while i think it is important to have goals and aims, i also think that when you push a little too hard against the flow of the world, it often just causes more complications for you. i don't cruise through life. i work hard when i have to and relax when i don't. life manages to always gently paddle me down a good lane.

at the moment i feel like i'm trying to move against it. and it's really uncomfortable. i feel the most content when i don't drown myself in self-invented problems and worries. i guess i had forgotten that. of late, i've let many things get in the way of my living in a content state. i'm stressing about the wrong things and it's causing me to feel unnecessary frustration. i need to reassess my thinking and behaviour.

life isn't about pining over things you can't have. it's about being grateful for what is already in front of you and making the best out of what the world has given you. what you have is quite often in excess of what you need.

i have to get my head thinking straight again...