the concept of friends.

hi everyone!

the weather's really pretty today. i hope everyone is out there making the best of it! :)

this post is about the concept of friends. i know i talk about it a lot but i had a somewhat unusual experience on saturday that sparked this entry. it was my friends birthday gathering on saturday night. i usually don't do the whole bar/lounge/club thing but she's a rather good friend of mine so my friend and i thought we'd go, even if it was just for a little bit. we didn't get to the place till 11pm because the traffic was really awful... gps said 6 minutes to go but then it actually took us over half an hour! anyway, by the time we got there, i suspected that the birthday girl had already had a decent amount of alcohol to drink at her house before coming out. in the spirit of things, people were buying her drinks (and so were we!) because she still looked and talked as though she was fine. it wasn't until she fell over on the dance area that we decided she should probably stop drinking and sit down for a while. another friend suggested that we take her upstairs because it'd be less noisy. so altogether, 5 of us went up. a security guard came over and said that the birthday girl had to leave because she was too drunk. as we were exiting, one of the friends disappeared. i thought that was odd. so it was just myself, my friend, the birthday girl and one of her other friends forcing her to walk down the street. this was followed by the usual (i'm told) events that occur when a person is heavily intoxicated.

what struck me about the whole situation is that none of her close friends were with her or looking out for her. once we headed upstairs, i have no idea where everyone else was. the one close friend that came up with us magically disappeared when we left the lounge. what ever happened to looking out for friends? making sure they're alright? and if they're not, staying with them until they are? what's the point of having friends when they're not even there when being a friend actually means something?

i'm obviously not saying that you use your friends but i think when you're with a friend then you kind of have the innate responsibility to look after each other. of course you don't purposely do stupid things knowing that others will look after you, but when it just happens... i mean, really. what on earth are people thinking these days?

xx.

Media Effects

I hope everyone is well. I'm just sitting in my study trying to complete an essay for uni. It's about media effects. To what extent do you think media influences the way we think? Does it distort the way we view the world? Do we become so absorbed in it that eventually it's all we know about the world?

BLOG REVAMP!

Hi everyone! I hope you're all well!

I'm my usual procrastination, I thought I'd update the look of the blog as well as the address. I'm now here, at cupcakespolkadotsandlife.blogspot.com

The whole layout was very quickly thrown together but i hope you like it! :)

I will write a proper entry soon. xx.

you make me feel like...

i'm living a teenage dream.


♥ Katy Perry. Majorly sad that I'm not going to her concert tonight. *FROWN*

i hope everyone survived the cold weather and winds today! i was quite thankful for only having 2 hours of uni today. :)

the inspiration i talked of yesterday is pretty much gone. LOL. yeah, it's like that. nothing really hangs around for a long time when it comes to me. except this terrible sickness at the moment. my throat hurts so much! it feels like someone trying to shove a whole orange down my throat every time i cough, which is much too often. i hope i didn't infect anyone today! ><

this is just a quick entry because i noticed that i'd gotten slack with the posts.

can't wait till summer to get back into shorts and thongs. :)


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okay i'm just a little ticked off at the moment. i would really like it if people would stop trying to push me academically. yes, i know i don't hit the high level that i used to. it just turns out that i'm not the academic type. i don't get some sort of fulfilment from getting good marks or sacrificing heaps of my time on something i don't like so that i can get a number out of 10 at the end of the day. i worked my arse off for two years and realised it amounted to a number at the end that no one even cared about. can i do it for another 7 years? i think not.
i don't plan on being a millionaire later on in life. i'm sure i'll be able to achieve whatever it is that i want to achieve without large sums of money. most of the population do it, don't they? and i think i'm old enough to see when i need to pick up the slack. all i've ever had is schoolwork. i think i'd know if i'm about to fail and when to ask for help.
please stop trying to lock me up at home in an attempt to make me 'study'. i really don't work like that. the more time i know that i have, the more i'll just procrastinate. it's just who i've become. it was never meant to happen. but you just hit a point, you know?

i don't know if i'll ever come out of this slump.

... and there was light.

hi everyone!

i hope you're all well! :D

i've been rather sick the last few days but managed to crawl out of bed this morning for a full day of uni, 10-5 with no break. despite being terribly long, it didn't feel that way because all my classes were good so i guess i'm pretty happy with that. i feel so tired and ill right now though... and i probably won't get home til 7ish. it's 5:38pm and i'm sitting in the biomed library, waiting for my brother to finish catching up with his friend and take me home! sigh.

i felt compelled to write about a small revelation a had less than an hour ago and, seeing as though i don't really feel like studying, this seemed like a good time to do it.

i just finished a three hour seminar on developments in biotechnology (2-5). i didn't really know what to expect from it but i ended up finding it really interesting. we had three speakers and it was the last one that really struck me. he does research at the university and is currently in the process of developing and testing a vaccine that could potentially eradicate a parasite that's killing large numbers of people in under-developed countries. it was really sad to hear how the project could've been at it's current point 10 years ago if it had received enough funding from companies. these large companies won't invest money into something that won't generate profit. i think that's just so terribly sad. (just had a coughing fit that has probably spread my sickness through this whole floor of people. awesome.) only putting in if you know you're going to get something greater out of it. and that something always, ALWAYS has to be money. so this professor that came to talk to us has been working on this project for 20 years and is finally testing it overseas. i think that's amazing. and all of a sudden everything that i stood for a few years ago came rushing back and everything that i'm doing now just makes sense.

my subjects all link together in the right way and i feel like i'm meant to be in this position. i always believed that you're where you are for a reason but now i feel like it's really true. biotech has re-exposed me to what kind of materialistic world we live in... it was something that i was so passionate about changing a few years ago. pharm gives me the background i need if this is what i want to do. human rights has been plummeting into me how unjust and misfunctioning the world is. mps is like a background subject, telling me how we've all become so absorbed in the lives of celebrities and politicians that we forget their policies and more important world issues.

it's like i've found inspiration all over again. i even went and borrowed the biotech textbook for the night. (y)
i don't know how long this inspiration will last for but it does feel nice to have it back again even if only for a little while. :)

so here's my crazy plan: ... actually, i don't want you to know my crazy plan just yet. you can wait.

yes i'm still coughing like a madwoman. sigh.

two birthdays this weekend. i don't know if i'll feel well enough to go. and i'm really behind on all my summaries too. :( but i've only got two hours tomorrow, finish at 11 so hopefully i can just go home and study... or rest if needed.

anyways, i need to go meet my brother. shall write again soon. xx.


I've never felt so lost. I've never felt so much at home. Please write my folks and throw away my keys. - I Woke Up in a Car by Something Corporate

pitter patter

hi everyone!

it sure has been awhile! i've just been a bit busy lately... came back from interstate on saturday night and am enjoying my first few days back at uni. today was a surprisingly good day. started with a pharmacology lecture then tutes for human rights and media politics. the school day rounded off nicely with a human rights lecture. i'm contemplating on switching out of pharmacology because i really don't think i'll like it, but then again i guess it's good to challenge yourself. i like all my other subjects so far though! :)

nothing much has been happening lately. i've been lying low. the only subject that i know people in is pharm so i spend most lectures sitting on my own. but that's okay. i learn better this way. there's still a bit of catching up to do for the first week back that i missed but only a bit. actually, it's something like 3 pharm lectures which really isn't that bad.

i caught up with some friends from st john's the other night. even though most couldn't make it, it was still nice to spend time with the ones that came. bao and i then had a rather enjoyable train ride home lip-syncing to random songs on the ipod.

with that last full stop it suddenly hit me that, for the first time in a long time, i feel pretty content with life at the moment. i guess i'm just moving on from the bitterness. or it could be from the lovely (but quite pricey, so much so that i felt really guilty after ordering) lunch i had just before at sweet source. or maybe it was the short hike back to uni through the light rain. or the fact that i'm sitting on my own writing this in the bailieu. or the fact that i might enjoy the subjects i'm doing this semester. i don't know. but i feel okay... like everything's going to be alright. :)

i came across a wonderful piece of inspiration the other day: 'Being challenged in life is inevitable. Being defeated is optional.' i thought this was so good that it's now the quote on my whiteboard at home.

random addition: i sat next to guy to smelt like maccas cheeseburgers during my rights lecture before. it was weird and strangely pleasant at the same time.


anyway, i better get some study done. i hope everyone is well! xx.


I got some troubles, but they won't last. I'm gonna lay right down here in the grass and pretty soon all my troubles will pass 'cause I'm in Sugar Town. - Sugar Town performed by Zooey Deschanel